Going to college has proved to be a challenge in a few ways; and although scrubs never seemed my ideal work outfit, & I was pretty bad with science in school… this is where God has lead me. Why? Good question. At first I was getting really stressed, good/bad habits seemed to be changing and I found myself quite despondent. Why wasn’t I doing something that suited me better, something that I felt built on my strengths etc.?
I brought it up in prayer, and asked the Lord about it, and then He answered. I was living for Him, right? Well, that’s what I was supposed to be doing, and why should I question how He had me do it? He is preparing me, and even though this seemed like an impossibly busy season, I felt He was asking me to get organised. It was a very straight forward message, and God’s voice was clear.
Yes, do school but don’t let it control me.
He asked me to do the course and so why was I flipping out about it’s results? I can trust the results to Him, care for my responsibilities and grow!
October was better than September because of this. God isn’t glorified in our strengths, as much as His strength is shown in our weakness. I was never meant to do this on my own and I’m not doing it for myself either. In any case…. didn’t I pray that God would use me for whatever He liked, especially if no-one else volunteered for the job? I can’t help but get excited… what’s next?!
On a more humbling note, this quote popped up in my inbox a couple days ago, and I didn’t check on it until today, but I hope it speaks to you as well;
“It ill becomes the servant to seek to be rich, and great, and
honoured in that world where his Lord was poor, and mean, and
– George Müller –
What are your thoughts? Is there a specific place, where God is asking for you to allow His grace to come in and show His glory, through your weakness?