It’s been a while since I’ve said a thing over here. Believe me I’ve been waiting for a star of inspiration, but the sky was pretty cloudy and life down here busy. Jen and I are in the middle of a tsunami of mid-terms and finals, but we’re going to make it, I promise 🙂
Back to the title, coming up to Christmas was a tough time for me, and I’ll let you know more details later… The one thing that really catapulted me was a lie. Going to college I was so excited, to get some training under my belt but mainly for the fact that I was so eager to share my faith and the gospel with everyone. That’s good, I was mainly excited because it was the first time I wanted to share it more than I feared it. That was a huge obstacle for me in the past; fearing people too much to share the truth with them, when really I should have been fearing & loving the God who made them.
Then came another obstacle * surprise * … No one wanted to hear it. I would share my heart and the joy I had found in Christ, yet more and more I was realizing that people really didn’t like the light, they loved the darkness more. Even though they wanted salvation and life, they weren’t willing to give up their sin. I think God allowed me to feel the pain of rejection, and I felt it keenly.
Some time later when reviewing the past year with family & friends, it was mentioned that in evangelism, some Christians plant seeds, some water and some harvest. The lie I had been believing was that I must carry it through to the end, and that it was my job to succeed. I realize the truth now and want to encourage you. When you feel like your not making progress, when no-one listens, when you feel fruitless… Remember that maybe you are the grain of wheat that must lay down it’s life for another to water and harvest. I hope your encouraged, that regardless of perceived results, to share Jesus and continue to let His light shine through you.
“Truly, Truly, I say unto you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it bears much fruit.” John 12:24
Your sister in Christ,